#reverb10 Day 19 - Healing - Aim High Erin

What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? – Leonie Allan

Part of me wants to cue some Marvin Gaye “Sexual Healing” right now, but I’ll refrain from singing to you. 😉 I haven’t healed completely, but I am slowly healing from the hurt I’ve experienced in my family. I mentioned on here before how my brother and I have a strained relationship. It’s brought me tears, heartache, and it’s made me feel like a complete stranger at times. It’s hard knowing that we used to be so close and then something happened – something that I can’t explain or understand. I feel like DH has more in common with him than I do at times. Last weekend I had a healing conversation with my brother. We were able to talk, and (as DH suggested) I made more of an attempt at conversation, so it was beyond the small talk that has plagued us recently. I think it went well, and he even said “I love you” back after I said it first (I always say it first). I made sure to let him know that I needed his address so we could send him care packages when he deploys soon. It’s a long, slow process of healing between my brother and I. It’s especially difficult when you don’t know what you’re trying to fix.

In 2011, I would like to be healed financially, imagine that! I know I talk a lot about money on here, and I think everyone knows how it takes its toll on a family. It’s been humbling, it’s been rough, and it’s been a good “self-check” for me, but I’m ready to move toward greater stability so we can start accomplishing our goals, such as homeownership.